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11:41 pm: Hello Journal Im back
Well hello to all I'm back after the loss of a close family member I have returned so here I am ready to journal on life and whatever else comes along.

10:19 pm: I see dead people
For as long as I can remeber when I was aware of what death was I have always if I was close to a person who had died had some kind of connection to their journey into what I call the spirit world. I had an uncle who died in a motorcycle accident and I was worried he did not get to finish all of his plans here in this world so I have felt for a while he was not at peace but however recently I recieved a visit from him spiritualy and I think he may have made it to nirvahna or heaven or beyond. This made me very happy inside and I wanted to call my cousin his daugther and tell her I recieved a visit but I'm not sure what her reaction would be so I will have to think awhile on that one. I had a grandmother who possed the gift of foresight and could make predictions about family events and was a highly regaurded person in her community at my grandmother's funeral there were many people I had never meet who were very thankfull for my grandmothers care and guidance in their lives at the time I thought it odd that strangers had so much respect and reference for a woman they hardly new. I later found out that some of these people had lost family members and my grandmother had contacted them letting them know that their family member had made it to the other side safely we never talked about my grandmothers gift but I sometimes wonder if I have some of her skills inheritly but have not yet mastered the power to tap into it spiritualy only time will tell I have told my mom about all my experience with many of my dead relatives and she is very supportive of my feelings on this subject but this is a subject I keep mostly to myself. I do however feel everyone can an will send some kind of message to their loved ones when they pass into the next world or life etc.

10:21 pm: Revenge & Anger
I walked out on my balcony tonite and as I looked at the snow it reminded me of that scene in kill bill where lucyloo and uma had that awsume samuri sword fight and i tought how nice it would be to take all my problems and put them in a row ( them being all my pent up anger and frustration over things I have no control over and would it make a difference if I did have CONTROL over my little world!) and chop their heads arms and legs and anything evil completely off so I could rid myself of this shell of daily shit that pollutes my life. But I digress so I just stepped onto my porch in my bare feet and felt the sting of the cold fridged mother-nature and thought to myself atleast I'm alive and can feel the good in the world as well as the bad.

05:31 pm: Hello to all ah its finally friday so im goin to redrobin eatery to have dinner with friends it was a very long day so i look forward to a nice big fat magarita to drink and maybe will watch the new harry potter flick tonite. Chow for now darlings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Oh Yes on a lighter note neverland ranch was closed today someone apparently forgot to pay my bills my telephone bills my employee bills my maintence bills my petting zoo bills etc etc etc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

05:19 pm: Hello to all ah its finally friday so im goin to redrobin eatery to have dinner with friends it was a very long day so i look forward to a nice big fat magarita to drink and maybe will watch the new harry potter flick tonite. Chow for now darlings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12:08 pm: Boring day
Hello all here I sit at home on this snowy day with nothing to do and theres not a thing on the tellie oh well I digress. Maybe it will pick up later today. Chow

10:57 pm: Hello World
Hiedy Ho darlings I have arrived to the wonderful world of online journals and I have noting to say so far but am excited to be here.